“I would like to ask one favor, though, if that’s not too much.” Her face softened for a moment and I could see that she would do anything for me, that she cared that much. Every cell in my body begged me one last time to stop, to wrap my arms around Bella and never let her go. It is all a lie!
My chest began to ache and I had to fight for every breath, carefully concealing the truth from my one and only love.
“Anything,” she said, and a hint of strength lay behind the word. I couldn’t hide my feelings as I made my last request of her. I gazed deeply into her eyes, willing her to know how much I loved her, how important she was to me. Lost in her perfect chestnut pools, I had to remind myself to speak
“Don’t do anything reckless or stupid. Do you understand what I’m saying?” I commanded.
She nodded weakly, and I knew she understood. Carefully I tried to lock away all the love, all the concern, my whole life, hiding it from her again. Pushing it all away, for without her I was nothing.
But she will live.
I reinforced the lie. “I’m thinking of Charlie, of course. He needs you. Take care of yourself – for him.” And for me.